End Game
I have to be extremely frank about this part of the story. I accept that it will probably not reflect terribly well on me but in my defence - which I feel is entirely justified - I ran out of patience, compassion, sympathy and even pity for her a very, very long time ago. I fully acknowledge that Souren is suffering from severe mental issues and that it could be argued that she's not entirely responsible for her actions - but she has plagued me across the years. I've seen friends and family pass away - and she's been there. Sunny days and rainy days. There she is again. Triumphs and tragedies. Still there - throwing out her wild and insane accusations.
It seems I'm not just a stalker, a hacker, a mutilator
of animals and a murderer - I'm also a misogynist, a racist, a victim
of child abuse...and in what has to be the pinnacle of evil-mastermind
character traits, I see myself as God and Jesus. I'm not really sure
where she can go from there...I appear to have the full set.
I grant you, I have been called a God at times - but this is by grateful
horn players who are understandably thrilled that after I've fixed their
sax they can get a low Bb out of it again. I'm nothing but modest about
it...
Folks who know me will (I hope!) say that I'm a very fair bloke. All
always help out where I can. I'm passionate about my work and share
whatever knowledge I've gleaned over the decades quite freely. I'm very
slow to anger and perhaps sometimes a little too quick to see the other
person's point of view. In short I'm just 'yer average guy'.
But I do have a bit of a bee in my bonnet about injustice - whether
it be on a global scale or in dealing with the faceless bureaucracy
of modern life. I believe everyone has the right to have their say.
And be listened to. 'What goes round, comes round' could easily be my
personal motto.
Since 2008 I've suffered injustice in silence. I remain eternally grateful
to all those people who have been made aware of what's been going on
and have offered advice, support and an ear or two to bend.
I've laid out the story here as best I'm able to in the hope that people
will understand what it means to me to have been able to reach this
point - and whilst I'm fully aware that the saga may well not yet be
over, I'm at least in a position where my view of it is very, very different
from before. I didn't choose this path, I bent over backwards to make
it crystal clear that I wanted nothing whatsoever to do with this poisonous
individual. And I don't say that lightly.
Many, many years ago when I had a music shop in Notting Hill I recall
serving a customer who was in a wheelchair. The guy was rude and confrontational
from the moment he entered the shop - and I made the classic mistake
of seeing the disability and not the person. I put up with his rudeness,
sold him a packet of strings or something and held the door open as
he left. Another customer in the shop came up to the counter to purchase
something - and as he turned to leave he said "Y'know - just because
someone's in a wheelchair it doesn't mean they're not an arsehole".
I've never forgotten that nugget of advice, and it's stood me in good
stead over the years. And it's why I firmly believe that underneath
Souren's obvious psychosis she's a thoroughly evil and nasty person.
I've stood strong under her onslaught but others have not been so fortunate
- and I cannot forgive or forget.
At the time of writing Souren is out on the streets in Amsterdam.
She set up a GoFundMe page with a view to getting other people to pay
for her mistakes - and despite netting a few grand from well-meaning
donors still finds time to display a truly horrific level of ingratitude:
"In any case, when I receive a donation from you, it does not entitle you to belittling me and twisting my words. I do admit - and I say this from time to time - that the often English way in which I communicate - including sarcasm - can be very confusing to Dutch people."
"The donations have just been going to waste, I feel. Can't you see that a vehicle is the solution? There would be NO END to the payments for a bunk in a hostel, which costs far more than many of you probably assume."
She also has a YouTube
channel on which she preaches about how everything and everybody
has conspired to bring her to this state of destitution - but what's
rather interesting about this particular medium is that people often
post comments in response to her. You won't see many dissenting posts,
however, because she deletes them.
In one of her rants she banged on at length about how she was 'hounded
out' of her apartment by 'cruel civil servants' - and then goes on to
say that she needs money to set up a secure base from which to work,
and thus earn an income. When someone suggested that she seemed to have
had exactly this but ran away from it - the comment got deleted pretty
quickly.
And this is the Souren MO. She presents the world from her point of
view, carefully editing out dissent and awkward questions - painting
this picture of a poor soul who's been hard done by and suffered at
the hands of, well, just about everybody.
And behind the scenes...
The hypocrisy is utterly disgusting.
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What this article truly means to me is that I no longer have to give a toss. I have enough friends out there who'll let me know if there are any significant developments, but for the time being I'm happy to wait until such times as she comes within reach of the UK justice system - and then perhaps I'll have my day. But as we've seen, this isn't always easy and it may mean having to resort to civil proceedings. That'll be very expensive and time-consuming - and to be honest I don't think even that will stop her. So this is perhaps my best option...
It's always been said that the best way to deal with a bully is to
stand up to them - but an equally effective strategy is to expose them.
Evil hates the limelight.
With hindsight I'll admit to myself that I should have published this
article many years ago. I was getting close to that point a couple of
years ago - but the discovery of others out there who'd been targeted
in the same way that I had somehow turned the whole sordid business
into nothing more than a sick joke. I never imagined that my opinion
of Souren could go any lower, but it has. This is, with apologies to
Potter fans, my 'Riddikulus' moment.
I said above that I cannot forgive or forget - but what I surely can
do is put an end to it, once and for all. And so, for better or worse,
that's the decision I've made - to expose her for the pathetic evil
lunatic that she is.
It was my intention to give her one last chance (yeah, I know, I know). To wait for another ranty email and then respond with a preview of this article and a list of things she needed to do to prevent my publishing it. But then this turned up on her Youtube channel:
It was one of a series of rants about stalkers in which
several people were named - some of whom I recognised as having contributed
to her GoFundMe appeal. How charming.
Naturally the videos disappeared almost as fast as they appeared - but
I caught this one just in time...and that was it for me. Line crossed
for the last time, no more chances.
On the very same morning this site went live.
I'll finish by saying this much; if you've encountered Souren and have been similarly abused, feel free to look me up and drop me a line. And welcome to the club. The more - quite literally - the merrier.
I did think of ending on a grandiose message to Souren, because she'll undoubtedly read this sooner or later. But y'know what...it's just not worth it. I think a simple "Oh, do go away - the game is up" will suffice.
Postscript:
As completely expected, Souren has seen this article and reacted accordingly.
A flurry of videos have appeared on her Youtube page, all of which repeat
the same old mantra: It's not her fault at all and I'm probably autistic
or something. She mentioned that she had tried to communicate - and
I guess I can't deny that...everything above lays out precisely what
that 'communication' entails.
Shortly thereafter all related videos were removed - and you'd be forgiven
for thinking that was the end of the matter. But they'll be back - and
if not, there'll be others. It's been that way for years and years and
years. The obsession clearly eats away at her, seemingly to the exclusion
of all else.
And a day later - here we are again:
I've called myself a lot of things over the years - perhaps
most notably a complete idiot for putting up with Souren's lunacy for
such a long time...but 'nazi zombie monster' doesn't ring any bells.
What's perhaps the most telling feature of her diatribe is how she justifies
her accusations. What I've put together here is a but a fraction of
the evidence I've had to collect and collate down the years, with everything
logged and dated. What's her evidence?
"Just LOOK at me...! That alone tells you it's true."
And that succinctly sums up what I've had to endure all these years. Suppositions plucked out of thin air, suspicions fuelled by mental instability - and all probably lubricated with alcohol.
Her reaction underlines the real horror of this whole sorry saga. Her
absolute refusal to face up to the facts and the overwhelming evidence.
There's a knee-jerk response, and then it all kicks off again. She is,
for me, the personification of the Black Knight in Monty Python's 'Holy
Grail'. All he can say as various limbs are hacked off is "It's
only a flesh wound! Come back and fight!"
And, as we're about to see, the scene replays time and time again...